The Scientist..

The song that never interest me..that is until the movie Wicker Park two years ago...Since then, I've grown to appreciate it more and more each day. These are the beautiful words...

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Cross-Road (Ramblings of a spotless mind)

I am tired about everything..work and other stuff are taking its toll on me. I fear I may have lost the fire that has driven me to work hard at everything. I have not been happy for quite awhile, happiness is only an illusion.

The saying going with the flow is an understatement. I need something to wake me from the numbness in my mind and in my heart. Appearance can be deceiving-I may seem happy when I'm around friends, colleagues, or even family. Inside, I'm just an empty void, and I need something..

Sadness and despair are norms for me...I am tired, of everything, of every single thing..I have always persevere in any hardships I've been in, but I wonder, if I can hang on any longer...maybe I will..

I would like to think that I've been good to those close to me or the ones who are not so close...be it personally or professionally...I've always given it my all, not 40%, but 100% in almost everything..I wonder if all of it is futile...

I'm at a point in my life where I should make important decisions, of which may determine my direction in life.

Questions ringing in my head, should I, could I, will I, must I...I sense that this is a turning point, may be good, may be bad.

Whatever my actions will be, one thing's for sure, I am gonna do it my way as it has always been for the past 25 years, almost coming to 26, and always will be.

Aah..decisions, decisions...

The Long Goodbye

A year is but a time spent together,
A year meant so much because it was with her,
A journey of life with endless possibilities,
Ended in the shroud of realities.

The heart seems to flourish with love and hope,
Only to be shattered with a tragedy that one cannot cope,
Wrestling with different emotions at the same time,
Only to remember that we were two lovers in crime.

Parting ways is a norm that should not be,
Circumstances prevent us from being happy,
Hard not to be sad when you are away,
But I'll remain strong knowing we will be ok.

Destiny plays a nasty trick on us,
How can one endure without losing part of oneself?
The mind can survive but can the heart really trust?