I am tired about everything..work and other stuff are taking its toll on me. I fear I may have lost the fire that has driven me to work hard at everything. I have not been happy for quite awhile, happiness is only an illusion.
The saying going with the flow is an understatement. I need something to wake me from the numbness in my mind and in my heart. Appearance can be deceiving-I may seem happy when I'm around friends, colleagues, or even family. Inside, I'm just an empty void, and I need something..
Sadness and despair are norms for me...I am tired, of everything, of every single thing..I have always persevere in any hardships I've been in, but I wonder, if I can hang on any longer...maybe I will..
I would like to think that I've been good to those close to me or the ones who are not so close...be it personally or professionally...I've always given it my all, not 40%, but 100% in almost everything..I wonder if all of it is futile...
I'm at a point in my life where I should make important decisions, of which may determine my direction in life.
Questions ringing in my head, should I, could I, will I, must I...I sense that this is a turning point, may be good, may be bad.
Whatever my actions will be, one thing's for sure, I am gonna do it my way as it has always been for the past 25 years, almost coming to 26, and always will be.
Aah..decisions, decisions...
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